[say]study type

Few minutes ago i was thinking about
this blog may being some where that i can expressive my thought and my spirit emotions
so maybe would have some boring sentence just for vent so don't have to take care about it

i am very contradiction
want to talk to somebody but actually i don't know to say what
all my thoughts were crush together it really make me headache

don't know what's wrong with me ,am i sick?
or just hit by too many thing and being so tired of myself

the content of books didn't really absorb of my brain
and begin to learn the next subject ..
i'm serious thinking about this type of study is good?
maybe i have catch the pace of my own study tpyes